Ended up sleeping in super late today. My mom messaged me telling me I have to get the battery out of my car. Anything that involves my car I just have zero motivation to do and it’s awful. I hate cars and the last thing I want to do is spend my free time trying to get the battery out of it or really do any work on it. I know I need a car to live out here but I just can’t push myself to do it.

I wish motivation wasn’t so hard for me. I see what people around me are capible of doing and it just seems like everybody else is playing on easy mode compared to me. Anybody else can easily force themself to do something they don’t want to do but that just doesn’t happen for me. It’s pretty pathetic. I can go to work and I do good work there…but only 3 days a week. If I worked more than that burnout would soon come and everything would fall apart.

Currently looking to get a sidebar working on my site. Just looking at neocities sites with inspect tool open to get an idea on how to do it. Seems like flexboxes is what I should use. I want to draw a custom background for the site. What I’d really like for this site is for everything to be made by me. The pictures, code, all that. With the exception of things like fonts and those little buttons at the bottom of the page. I want to build a place online that I can truly call my own, not just other peoples work being thrown together, you know? I’ve never been a very artistic person but maybe this site can be where that changes.

I have been rewriting all the CSS on the home page to account for a sidebar and progress is good. Feels much cleaner than the CSS that was there before. I think I will have links to other parts of the site on the left, buttons and links to other sites on the right, as well as the music player, and anything else in the middle…which right now is just site updates.